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"All My Life, My Heart Has Yearned for a Thing I Cannot Name" is the eighth and final episode of the second season of Euphoria, and the eighteenth episode of the series overall. It was released on February 27, 2022 on HBO and HBO Max.[1]


As the show goes on, fragments of memories collide with the present and future.


The story starts with Fezco in his home, he is about to head out to Lexi's play, but then Custer tells him that Mouse's body has been found. Faye drops her glass and grabs Fezco's attention, telling him not to talk. Fez stops and stays there while she cleans up her mess, and asks Custer if he told her that Laurie killed Mouse and that he shouldn't be covering for them. While Ashtray is getting more and more suspicious, he carefully walks over to Custer while his back is turned and stabs him in the neck. When Fez realizes that the phone is recording he tells Ash to be quiet before suffocating Custer.

Lexi's play is halftime and going pretty well, until Cassie comes on the stage and gets mad because they show "embarrassing" scenes of everyone, because everyone knows the play is about real people. Cassie harasses Lexi and screams at her until Suze comes and attempts to bring Cassie back to her spot. Cassie refuses and has a shouting match with Maddy. After Cassie knocks Hallie off of the carousel horse, Maddy gets upset and runs toward the stage, with Kat and BB in toe. Maddy takes off her shoes while running up the stage stairs and when she catches up to Cassie, she slaps her. After Cassie runs off stage, Maddy chases her out of the auditorium, smashing her head against a brick wall.

Rue finally decided to meet Elliot again and apologize. They renewed their friendship. Lexi cries and hides because Cassie ruined her play, with Bobbi comforting her telling her that the audience liked it. While backstage, Lexi hears the chants of her name, which unbeknownst to her, Rue had started to support her best friend. After Fez hits him, he tries to convince Ashtray to hide and pretend that Fez killed Custer, so Fez goes to jail instead of Ashtray. Ashtray refuses and locks himself in the bathroom. When the police arrives, Ashtray shoots at the police. It is a shooting match, until Ashtray fakes dead, and shoots one of the SWAT member, the last SWAT member shoots Ashtray in the forehead, killing him.

Nate goes to his dad and sees him having intercourse with some other people. Nate exposes Cal and calls the police to inform him about everything he has done. Rue talks about memories of her dad at his funeral. Suze calls Lexi and Cassie, because they're father got into an accident. They cry because their father could have died, while Lexi remembers how Rue had been in the hospital too. Rue and Lexi then talk about how losing their fathers have affected them in different ways and how they'll always be there for each other. Once the play is finished, Jules shuffles through the audience to talk to Rue. Once there, she apologizes and tells Rue that she still loves her. After a while, Rue calmly kisses Jules on her forehead, symbolizing that she forgives her but she'd rather focus on herself so that she can stay clean for the rest of the school year.




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  • Will Greenfield

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  • The title of this episode is a reference to the quote from André Breton's book Mad Love.
  • As of February 24, 2022, this episode is trending as a top search on Google.
  • Javon Walton, the actor who portrays Ashtray, described this episode as intense, devastating and extremely shocking.
  • According to PopBase, Javon Walton revealed that Fezco was the one that was supposed to die in this episode, but the script was rewritten a day before the last day of filming began.[2]
  • HBO Max crashed for many viewers while trying to watch the episode, just like the premiere episode, "Trying to Get to Heaven Before They Close the Door".[3]
  • The episode delivered 6.6 million viewers across all platforms, per HBO. That’s more than five times the audience for the season one closer back in August 2019 and the best night one tune-in Euphoria has ever drawn.[4]


Song Artist Album Scene
Uno che grida amore Ennio Morricone Metti una sera a cena (Gold Tracks) Fez and Lexi talk.
Main Titles (The Fury) John Williams Diamond Head Lexi texts Fez; Cassie heads toward the stage.
La Strada Suite: I. Nozze in campagna - È arrivato Zampanò Marzio Conti, Orchestra Sinfonica del Teatro Massimo di Palermo Rota: La Strada Suite, Sinfonia sopra una canzone d'amore & Waltzes from Il Gattopardo Cassie pulls Hallie off the carousel; A fight ensues on stage.
Un homme qui me plaît (Concerto pour la fin d'un amour) Francis Lai Collection Francis Lai: Made in France, Vol. 4 (Bandes originales de films) Rue looks back at Eliot. Eliot nods back; Rue reads a letter at the funeral and Bobbi consoles Lexi.
L'amore Dice Ciao (Slow Take) Andee Silver, Armando Trovajoli La Matriarca - The Libertine (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack) Lexi's cast and crew look to her for what to do next; Rue starts a chant.
Can't Get You out of My Head Kylie Minogue Fever Nate finds Cal at the construction and confronts him.
Ti prego amami Ennio Morricone Metti una sera a cena (Gold Tracks) Rue finishes reading the letter; The cops arrest Fez.
Les Choses De La Vie Philippe Sarde Les Choses De La Vie (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack) Rue retreats to the living room during the funeral; In the play, Jade joins the girls outside; Rue tells Lexi she loved the play.
Elliot's Song - From "Euphoria" An HBO Original Series Dominic Fike, Zendaya Elliot's Song (From "Euphoria" An Original HBO Series) Elliott plays to Rue.
I'm Tired - From "Euphoria" An Original HBO Series Labrinth, Zendaya I'm Tired (From "Euphoria" An Original HBO Series) At the end.


See also: Category:Images from All My Life, My Heart Has Yearned for a Thing I Cannot Name